It's been a while. Very busy week last week. I didn't get enough sleep, and I guess it showed during the meet. I ran even slower than last week, which is just embarrassing, especially since I was against D1 competition and I think every single person in the race lapped me. Feeling a little more discouraged, since I have a very limited number of chances to improve the school record and I've already wasted two of them. Also, apparently Kelly is going to take up steeple and I'm really afraid she'll beat me. The only reason I feel good about track right now is that I'm the only one on the team who can do the steeple. The long jump, however, actually went fairly well. Jumped over 14 feet, which was the goal.
The other highlight of the weekend was Red Carnation Ball, the TKE formal. I had a really good time with Mark, but the evening just seemed to go by too fast. And they didn't really play any slow songs, which surprised me. That's usually a staple at formals. If we go to the Pi Phi formal with Maggie, I hope they play more slow songs there.
Also, believe it or not, the issue of Matthew bitterness has been haunting me of late. I think it's the fact that it's one year on from a lot of stuff: RCB last year, Flunk Day, etc. I'm almost afraid for Flunk Day to happen because I might just spend the whole day feeling sorry for myself. And what if Mark is too tired or whatever to hang out with me? It'll just be miserable if it reminds me of last year. And I don't want him to feel like he has to...because he doesn't, obviously. Sigh. I kind of wish I could erase spring term last year. I've never made a bigger mistake in my life.