Thursday, February 24, 2005
It's probably just that time of the month,
but I can't seem to avoid feeling depressed all the time. Sometimes I'm fine, but it never lasts for long and usually it's an act. The worst thing: I can see myself right now and how utterly pathetic I am. And I hate it. The other worst thing: I have no discernible reason to be depressed, other than the things that have been constants, like the Eldiar and uncertainty about my future. Perhaps I have SAD, seasonal affective disorder, so when spring gets going and the sun comes out, I'll feel better and suddenly be able to do my work again. Right now, it's not happening so much.